Dear called just now. chatted for like at most 3 mins? Sigh... I also don't know what to talk to him about. He apologised for not keeping his promise. I'm not mad because he didn't keep his promise. hmmm... Maybe I was mad. But that was like 2 days ago! I mad because of myself. I can't believe I'm so selfish. Only concerning about me being neglected. Wake up girl! He's undergoing even more emotional and physical trauma than you being neglected! I'm trying not to feel sorry and pitiful for myself. Trying to be more understanding about his situation. But it seems such an impossible task. GOD! When did I become such a selfish brat??? I don't know how to tell him about it... I'm evil. I'm mean. I'm selfish. I only care about myself. Why do I deserve to be loved??? He deserves someone better than me. Someone who is selfless, unlike me. Someone who is understanding, unlike me... I feel so ashamed of myself... feel so ashamed of being his girlfriend... he definitely deserves someone better than me...